The Real Test Starts Tommorrow!!!

Tommorrow, after I return from the grocery store will be the true test on rather or not I can maintain the weight loss. I'll be tempted like never before. We are already debating on what we are going to eat for dinner tommorrow. We have gone back and forth between Philly Cheesesteaks, Chicken Salad and New York Strip Steak. I think the Chicken Salad would be healthier for me and a better choice. I know that now I have to put in just 1 day a week of eating whatever I want. No delivery or take out. But what is in the house.

And McDonald's is now out forever. No more of that junk. I now realize that everytime I eat that crap, I am sick within a few hours and it will last a day and a half. I was so sick the other night from eating that. And it always happens whenever I eat there. So I have to say no to McDonald's for now.

That is it for now, I have to go and ice down my back. My Sciatica is acting up again, had a huge flare up this morning. So no exercising or anything until it goes away.

Take Care & Be Blessed

P.S.....There should be no reason on God's Green Earth why Estella Sebina should be visiting any of my blogs. But I guess she is such a loser that she has nothing better to do with her life than to check up on me. And here I am thinking that Darryl was the loser.

So It Is The Junk Food???

I finally figured out why I put on so much weight...and what was causing me. I'm a stress eater and I have been under a tremendous amount of stress lately. Plus, a majority of the weight was put on while I was recuperating from my injury. Not being able to be mobile and being on bed rest, I was given a bag of "goodies" everyday, so that I would only have to get up to go to the rest room. Well...imagine ingesting 2-4 Reeses Peanut Butter Cups (I'm talking about the 2 in a pack ones), 2 sodas (24 ounces each), an entire 99 cent bag (well...because of inflation..now $1.29) of chips....2 Hostess apple pies...imagine eating this 5-7 days a week??? I weighed more at my heaviest point, than I did when I was pregnant. You know how you check in to the hospital to deliver and they weigh you? Recently, I weighed more when I wasn't pregnant.

Over the past few days, I have totally cut out junk food. I have not had a soda since Monday. I have not had any junk food since last Friday. And I have lost weight. I last weighed myself a couple of days ago..not on my normal Weigh In day. It was at 180...this was like 3 days ago...I just weighed myself and my weight is now at 177.

I got to thinking again about where I wanted to be at. What my ideal weight is?? What size?? That I don't know. I keep changing. I'm thinking around the 150-160 range. More or less around 150. I have to update the weight loss ticker.

I'm hungry as hell....and an evil bitch!!! But that is due to not snacking like I want to. And trust me...it is hard as hell. Seeing "$5.00 Footlong Commercials" all day long, having to pass McDonalds to get anywhere...knowing that KFC is a short walk away. Knowing how easy it is to pick up a telephone and call some place and bring food to you....so hard to fight the temptation. I refuse to go downtown for any reason right now. All I need right now is to walk past Garrett's Popcorn!! Or an Arby's!!

But it is all for a good cause. So I will just stick it out. I also haven't done my 1 day of "Sinful" eating. You know where you allow yourself to eat whatever the hell you want all day.....everyday??? Because I know I will pack on the pounds in a heartbeat!! And I'll see that as a lost cause and go into a funk and eat and snack and then everything that I have accomplished so far will be down the drain.

So I'm sticking it out!!!

180

Todays weigh in said 180 pounds. Doing good. Better than I thought. Eating has been sporadic, but not snacking like I used to. Thinking that may be what is working.

Officially Starting

As of today, I am officially starting my diet over. I got over a very stressful time in my life and I am ready to dedicate everything to reaching my ideal weight. I figured that 35 pounds is enough weight to lose, that would put me at a size 10 or size 12. Good enough for me and good enough for others.

I will weigh myself every Friday. I keep the scale away from me now, so I am not stepping on it everytime I walk past it. I'm accomplishing a lot of my goals now, so I have no doubt that I can do it.

Update

Haven't weighed myself since the last time I got on that scale. So I have no idea what it is at right now. Today isn't the day to weigh myself as I'm retaining water like nobody's business!!!

After next week, I will start working out. My ankle kind of took a step back so I'm not able to do what I want work out wise.

Will post more later.

WOW!!!

Okay,

Yesterday was a bad day in terms of snacking. Why did I have to buy that big family pack of Chips Ahoy at the grocery store? And I brought one pack and sat it next to the computer and all day long, I was snacking. So not good. So the scale has gone back to 190 and I have to do a few days of dieting before Easter comes. Having a family dinner so I know I will be packing on some weight. Problem is, I don't know which family...my maternal or paternal. Can't have both sides. Will see.

Other than that. I have a new goal in mind. Can we say Pro-Am?? That's all I'm gonna say. If you are in a certain industry (Not Pageantry), then you know what Pro Am is. Watching too much of something on tv and it got me thinking "Hmmm....that's a good goal". June 2010 is the date!!!

185 And Still Going

I weighed myself and I'm down to 185. Scale is continuing to move in the right direction. I have stopped snacking after a certain time, soda is a "Privilege" now and I'm baking instead of frying.

I still don't know what my goal is. I have to figure that out, so I willk now if I'm close to it or not. Probably somewhere between 155-160. Who knows??